SOME PEOPLE JUST DONT EVER LEAVE THE FUCK OFF YOUR BACK...

i hate that...
how impolite it is for people to judge you and say what they wanna say...
the best outfit/attire for you...punk meets preppy
and theres this guy in my 2nd block who copied my post on myspace and said...
"ewww...someone said punk meets preppy...WHAT THE FUCK"

WELL WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM BITCH...
SHUT THE HELL UP
AND LEAVE ME ALONE
YOU LOSER.

OK, i am no emo...
i like to write what i think...
i just think its pathetic...

JUST GO AND FUCK YOUR BITCH INSTEAD...
YOU GUYS ARE MEANT TO BE!!!

you think youre so great in your spiderman hoody...
whos the FUCKER now?
ive always like my 2nd block...
except for the annoying people at the back who doesnt care about anything but themselves.
id rather do my work and turn it in on time...thankyouverymuch!!!

this is me...DEAL WITH IT!!!

50 Ways to Annoy a Metalhead

1. Tell them every metal band worships the devil.
2. Ask if all black metal bands are trying to copy
KISS or just most of them.
3. Hide their joint under their library card.
4. Ask if they know of any other cool bands like
Slipknot.
5. If they're listening to metal, tell them it sounds
like some mainstream band. Doesn't matter who.
6. Say it's all a ripoff of Iron Butterfly anyway.
7. Ask if they've given their souls to Jesus yet.
8. Vaguely imply that you're gay and would like
their company for the evening.
9. Record over their Cannibal Corpse albums with
other Cannibal Corpse albums and see if they ever
notice the difference.
10. Refuse to accept their fake I.D.
11. Ask how much Dio got paid for his role as
Stuart Little.
12. Use the phrase "cookie monster vocals" and
act like it's the funniest, most original thing you've
ever come up with.
13. If they're listening to metal, tell them "These
guys don't have talent. Now <insert any
mainstream band here>, those guys have talent!"
14. Say "What is vinyl?"
15. Point out how stupid manowar is. If they agree,
tell them the only thing more stupid is Black
Sabbath with Dio.
16. Tell them it all sounds the same.
17. Admit that Cliff Burton was a dirty hippy who
had already peaked musically.
18. If they say they love 80s metal, ask them what
ever happened to Poison.
19. Tell them you like underground music too, like
<insert the newest overhyped fashionable loud-ish
band from the radio>
20. Point out that Tarja from Nightwish can't sing.
21. Insist that Emperor videos would be better if
they used a dance troupe.
22. Ask if Mayhem is Marilyn Manson's band.
23. Divert their CD shipments to the local Jewish
community center.
24. Write "God Loves You" on their Venom
backpatch.
25. Point out that just about every genre of music
has an underground with bands who have integrity,
so metal really isn't that unique.
26. Post under their nickname on a power metal
board and say Ray Alder shits all over John Arch.
27. Take out the Iron Maiden disc and put in 50
Cent.
28. Give them a spiky pop-punk haircut while they
sleep.
29. Pronounce "Celtic Frost" correctly.
30. If they're over 25, say that people can still rock
even if they have an unplanned child or two and
drive a grocery getter. Then point and laugh.
31. Tell them you're not hiring and to try the other
Cinnabon down the street.
32. Sit quietly and applaud politely at a metal
show.
33. Make them be sober for five whole seconds.
34. Ask if Randy Rhoads was on the same flight
as John Denver.
35. Tell them Korn brought metal back to life in the
90s.
36. Turn the bass way up on their stereo.
37. Laugh at Slayer for stealing their name from
the Buffy show.
38. Call Doro fat.
39. Call them on their horrible grammar and/or
spelling.
40. Remind them that metal is partially derived
from the blues. Then accuse them of being
wiggers.
41. Use the phrase "balls in a vice" at least three
times when talking about classic metal and/or
power metal vocalists.
42. If it's a guy with long hair, address him as if he
were female. Don't correct yourself about it.
43. Be impressed with how much RoadRunner
Records has improved over the past ten years.
44. Say you love Metallica's debut, The Black
Album.
45. Notice that Lemmy hasn't moved his left hand
in 30 years of playing bass.
46. Refer to metal as "that kill-your-father rape-
your-mother stuff."
47. Ask them if their favorite band is so good, how
come nobody has ever heard of them.
48. Pine for the good old days when Pour Some
Sugar On Me was a big hit.
49. Tell them you used to be a metalhead, but
grew out of it when you started listening to more
intellectual stuff like <insert any band at all here>
50. Post a list of "Ways To Annoy Metal Fans"
knowing full well that so many of them internalize
everything and can't take a joke.

i got it all worked up in my mind, i just have to write it down.

the greatest part of my personality is my mystery. im not much of a talker specially when it comes to my family. i just realized this awhile ago whule eating breakfast with my mom. ive always liked it that way. just the two of us.

going to church.

shopping.

driving while listening to disco music (which never really bothered me)

im complicated like that. i dont just easily open up to my feelings.

especially to my most serile feelings.

i do talk about boys and all that crap with my friends in school,but that doesnt mean anything. i remember my friend andrea who has always been "amused" on how i socialize with people.

"its like you can be friends with everybody, i can never be like that"---she said

you see, the people around us are shallow. and thats the way you treat them. compliment them a little and theyll end up liking you.

its crazy how people say they "wear only whats comfortable"

but everyday...the halls are filled with mary-kate and ashley clones. messy hair,,,the "classical" look...i never get that.

ok, i think i may be going a little bit off my topic.

so back to me again. i cant never handle relationship well i guess. i look forward to seeing that person but when im already there, i cant even say a god-damned thing. its not that im nervous...i am scared. not of rejection, not of anything related to my reputation...but, i just dont wanna...

ok...i think im getting you confused now...

i just think that im more complicated than how i seem to be.

i cant even understand myself...

so thats my conclusion for today.

deal with it. 

youre so obvious.

i just thought you wanna know.

(this is for my friend who's hitting on me)

---i love boys, theyre stupid. 

daria quotes

I like having low self esteem. It makes me special -- Daria

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"I'm going to spend the next of the day working on your self esteem."
"Mom, I'm in the hands of professionals. Any meddling by you could be detrimental to my existence."
-- Daria's mom and Daria

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"You're blind, deaf, and can barely walk. Yet, you've had affairs with three royals! How do you do it?"
-- tv show "sick sad worls"

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"Even though I'm more popular, we do have some things in common."
"Breathing?" -- Brittany and Daria

[In the cafeteria]
Brittany: Thanks for helping me earlier in art. May be there's something I could teach you.
Daria: Well, you could show me how to twirl hair around my little finger and look vacant.
[Twirling hair around her finger]
Brittany: I don't know if that's something you can teach.

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"I love being the hostess. It's so easy to get home at the end of the evening." -- Brittany

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"Where were you girls been all our lives?"
"Waiting for you. We were born in this room. We grew up in this room. And we're going to die in
this room, alone." -- teenage boy and Daria

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I didn't met a bunch of new people, I made Quinn want to throw herself down a well, and I came home
with this bonus sock. All in all, a great time. -- Daria

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How come even in my fantasies everyone is a jerk? -- Daria

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"They may be shallow, but that doesn't mean they should be executed."
"Yes it does."
"OK, I'm sold." -- Daria & Jane

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"Look at the jello! It's jiggling!"
"Afraid of the competition?" -- Brittney and Daria

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"Are we all going to die?"
"Not on school property. Go home!" -- boy and principal

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"You know, being a post-apocalypic town will be cool. The other towns will be afraid of us."
"They already are." -- Jane and Daria

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Jane's Motto: Every cloud has a smoky gray lining. -- From the Daria website

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"I warn you, this is going to screw up the natural world order!"
"That's Daria's mission in life." -- Leprechaun & Jane

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Jane: You know, being a postapocalyptic town is going to be cool. Other towns will be scared of us.
Daria: I'm sure they already are.

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Jane: Well, what's your definition of true?
Daria: Something that says something.
Jane: What, anything?
Daria: No, something, about something.
Jane: Let me get this straight, you're telling me that you want to write something, not just
anything,
that says something about something.
Daria: Right.
Jane: Gee, who'd ever believe you having trouble communicating.

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Jane: Hey Daria, can I have your boots?
Daria: Yeah, turn around. I'll give you one right now.

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Jane: Am I missing something?
Ms. Morris: The team needs you, and you need the team... IF you don't want to
be here taking math again this summer.
Jane: Gee, that almost sounds like blackmail. Fortunately, I can pull up
my math grade on my own.
Ms. Morris: Then I'LL flunk you.
Jane: Why don't I go to Ms. Li and expose this grade-changing arrangement?
Ms. Morris: She already knows.
Jane: Okay, then, back off or I'll tell the P.T.A.
Ms. Morris: They know too.
Jane: ...Congress?
Ms. Morris: You're beaten, Lane.
Jane: How about if I call the three local TV stations and tell each one that
the other two are running the story?
Ms. Morris: Damn.

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[Having been offered a visit to a private school.]
Daria: I already go to a school where the kids all think they're cooler than me. I want to go
to a school
where the kids all think they're smarter than me, too.

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Trent: We're thinking of changing our name. Do you think if we spelled Mystic Spiral with two y's
it would be better?
Daria: [thinking] And if I spelled my name D-a-r-y-a I'd be crowned Miss America.

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Mr. O'Neill: You probably think about the dark side all the time.
Daria: The... dark side? Are we talking about "The Force"?

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[Daria puts her head in her locker.]
Daria: Do me a favor.
Jane: Yeah?
Daria: Close my locker.

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Daria: Only Quinn could turn having brains into a fad.
Jane: You know how fads are. Today it's brains, tomorrow, pierced tongues.
Then the next day, pierced brains.

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Daria: Don't worry. I don't have low self-esteem. It's a mistake.
Jake: I'll say.
Daria: I have low esteem for everyone else.

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Daria: Sometimes your shallowness is so thorough, it's almost like depth.

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Daria: Welcome to "It's a Nutty Nutty Nutty World."
We're just nuts about nuts.

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Mr. Anthony DeMartino: And why are we going to engage in simulated combat? Daria.
Daria: Because no high school education is complete until you've chased your fellow students
around the woods with toy guns?

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Ms. Claire Defoe: Good work, Daria. Your cube is BURSTING out of the picture plane.
You've really created the illusion of depth!
Daria: I'm thinking of going into politics.

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Mr. Timothy O'Neill: So you see, girls, I don't want to change the intent of the poster, I just want to
make it more palatable. You know what they say, a spoonful of sugar helps the medicine go down.
Jane Lane: Not if you're diabetic.

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Daria: As far as I can make out, "edgy" occurs when middlebrow, middle-aged profiteers are looking
to suck the energy -- not to mention the spending money -- out of the "youth culture." So they come up with
this fake concept of seeming to be dangerous when every move they make is the result of market research
and a corporate master plan.

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Helen Morgendorffer: I came in to ask you to rinse off your dishes before you put them in
the dishwasher. Your father found a cheese fry melted onto his "World's Greatest Dad" cup and he thought
it was some kind of rodent. Now he's sworn off coffee.
Daria: Then I should be hearing from the Nobel committee any day now.

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Jane Lane: Hey, look Daria. The fog's rolling in.
Daria: Ew. That's not fog. That's methane.

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Sandi Griffin: Help! Whoa, I'm drowning!
Daria: Stay there. I'll be right back.

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Quinn: Daria, you can't leave me here with those, those yuppies!
Daria: Yuppies are from the '80s.
Quinn: So what do you call people with funny outfits who talk about peace and love and stuff?
Daria: Trekkies.

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[Daria bumps into someone she can't see, because she isn't wearing her glasses]
Upchuck: Ow!
Daria: Oh, uh, sorry, Upchuck.
Upchuck: Sweet Daria, you don't have to resort to a ruse to get into my personal space. All
you need do is ask.
Daria: Your personal space is the final frontier, Upchuck. One where I intend never
to boldly go.
[walks away]
Upchuck: You'll be back. They all come back.
Jane: Name two.
[walks away]
Upchuck: [pause] I could!

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Jane: Come on, not even aliens would give the planet to the Fashion Club.
You're getting paranoid.
Daria: I'm not talking about aliens. But there's something out there.
Something stupid.

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[Daria and Jane lead a school tour.]
Daria: Let's move on to Hell and Purgatory, also known as the gym and locker rooms.
Jane: Where, for 20 bucks, I'll show you which showers haven't been peed in. To my knowledge.
[Tour students are shocked.]
Daria: My friend is just kidding you, of course. They've all been peed in.

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Daria: My hormones don't rage. Oh sure, they get mad sometimes,
but then they just stop speaking to each other.

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Trent: Some people say that's what drove him to madness.
Others say, you know, no.

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[School is on a mountain hiking trip.]
Ms. Li: We'll have no problem reaching base camp before dark, as long as there
are no more surprises.
[Snow begins to fall.]
Daria: Surprise.

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Jane: A lot of weirdness around here lately.
Daria: Yeah. I won't be sorry to see this day end.
Jane: You say that every day.
Daria: Oh, yeah.

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Kevin: Darwin's the monkey guy, right? I like monkeys.
Mr. DeMartino: A statement no doubt once also made by your mother!
Kevin: No. She's more into kitties.
Brittany: I love kitties!
Mr. DeMartino: That's terrific, Brittany, and really adds an extra dimension
to today's lesson!

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Quinn: Daria, have you seen my new Teenage Superstars magazine?
Daria: I couldn't help myself. I plastered my walls with its hot sexy pinups.
Quinn: I'll ask Mom.
[Quinn exits. Helen enters.]
Helen: Daria, have you seen your father?
Daria: Did you look under the Teenage Superstars magazine?
Helen: I'll ask Quinn.

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Jeffy: What does "woe" mean?
Daria: It's like the feeling you'd get if the Super Bowl were preempted by
"Antiques Roadshow".
Joey: Whoa!
Daria: See?

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[Looking at Jane and Daria's poster for the art contest]
Ms. Claire Defoe: Oh Jane. She's beautiful.
[Reading the poem]
Ms. Claire Defoe: She knows she's a winner. She couldn't be thinner. Now she goes to
the bathroom and vomits up dinner.

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Jane: And the dish ran away with the spoon. But Hawaii was
the only state that would recognize the marriage as legal.

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Woman on TV: I didn't mean to hurt him!
Daria: The knife just slipped. Sixty-seven times.

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Jane: I do envy you.
Daria: Then I'm afraid the fever's reached your brain,
and you'll have to be destroyed.

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Jane: Would you say sleeping with the guitar in your hands is practicing?
Trent: As long as you don't drop it.

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Daria: Damn. I'll have to make my own breakfast.
[She pushes the toaster level down]
Daria: Now I'm too tired to eat.

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Daria: So now my once rational mother is telling me that I have to respect Quinn's beliefs.
Jane: Well I suppose the earth *could* be flat.

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Jane: Ready to leave?
Daria: I was ready to go before we got here.

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[Daria's class is visiting the local mall]
Mrs. Bennet: Now, we'll meet back here at quarter to three. Remember, area F, section moss,
level 3. Got it? F moss 3.
Kevin: I know a good way to remember that.
Mrs. Bennet: You have a mnemonic device Kevin?
Kevin: It's not a S&M thing Mrs. B, it's just a way to remember that.
Mrs. Bennet: Well let's hear it.
Kevin: Fmossthree. Fmossthree! Get it? Fmossthree! Or was it Fmosstwo?
Mrs. Bennet: Everyone, write it down!

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"My goal is not to wake up at forty with a bitter realization that I wasted my life at a job I hate
because I was forced to decide on a career in my teens. -Daria

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[Leaving a Party]
Quinn: This night was like...What does it mean when something's funny? Moronic.
Jane: I think you mean ironic.
Daria: She was right the first time.

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Daria stares at tv. "Daria..Daria..the tv's not on." "Shh, I'm watching this" -Daria and Helen

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"I've written lots of stuff, it's just not up to my standards. I didn't even know I had standards." -Daria )

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"I have no friends. I walk alone." - Jane

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Jake:"See those berries? That's our breakfast! See that stream? That's our drinking water!"
Daria:"See that skeleton? That's our future."

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"The night holds the key." -Trent
"The key to what?" -Daria
"I don't know, Daria, it's early." -Trent

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Willow:"You have a very old soul."
Daria:"It just looks mature for its age."

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Jake:"Won't this camping trip be fun, Daria?"
Daria:"Yeah. Almost as fun as drowning."
-From "The Teachings Of Don Jake."

i was pissed.

when we went to cowboy pizza, all i did was stare at the people who were wasting their money on arcade games...

i didnt want to sit there al night so i agreed to played one game of hand revo with my sister. i officially kicked her ass on that...(evil laugh)

after that i went back to my bumpy spot and that whne i felt something on my feet...

i kicked it was...damn it was hard...

the i looked under the table and FUCK...

thats when i saw...an ELECTRIC GUITAR...

 i was so shocked...my parents remembered...

even though its not the exact kind that i wanted, but still, it was an awesome electric guitar...!!!

its only like $400...i understand that we dont have that much money now to get a fender soloist...

and so i beat my sister again...this time i was getting full combos on my game...we used about 40 tokens on that machine...

i agree, i should have wasted my money... 

its just been a long week, thats all...

 

now i feel so depressed...i tried to talk to ashly during block 6 coz i met her really nice (and cute) friend david but she's like, "i dont feel like talking right now...i kind of wanna be alone" and i said, "oh ashly, common, dont feel bad...we love you the way  you are...i love you the way you are..."

but then i decided to move away...things like that just gets to me...then i felt sad too...coz i know how she feels...i feel the same way too but i try hard not to think about it...

today is my birthday...it is the worst i ever had...we'll maybe its because NOBODY knew about it...this is why i dont like not having many friends...

last year was the best, i had a blast. i had like 30 guests and a cool party...we played basketball and talked the whole night and drink beer...tim traveled a long way just to see me...(my boyfriend that time) he even brought me roses and a teddy bear, it was sweet...

but technically, today is not my birthday...today is our last day until spring break and i thought i could celebrate it today...so much for my "early birthday"...

maybe on sunday, it'll be better...

i doubt it... 

 

 

MAYBE i just need someone right now.
for no particular reason.
its like everytime i look around i feel so alone.
the world is too big for me...
ive been trying to overcome this loneliness for a long time now
but it only seems to be getting deeper and stronger.

i know this is foolish.
i should have everything that other people have in order to be happy.
i like the way i am, i really do.
its just hard for me, see people with their "own"

sometimes i dont get it.
guys ask have asked me out but i said "no"
it feels like i dont really know whats going on.
like i no longer control myself.
and it hurts me.
it really hurts.
to be confused.
to be alone.
to be nobody.
im tired of not having nobody.

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i saw jose today...and it was normal...
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i saw earl today but we werent able to talk
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but the worst part of all...
i saw tylor today but i dont think he saw me...